Saturday, August 15, 2015

Does Absence Make Your Heart Grow Fonder

I've been thinking about the old saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder." If I actually researched the saying it was probably intended for couples separated for a length of time due to work, war, etc. many many years ago, and it probably is an accurate saying for most people. As for me, I have never believed it for the simple reason that I've experienced the opposite in regards to absence - I eventually forget. For example, if you read my blog a few days ago you know of the current situation that I'm living in now with a family member that has chose to disconnect. Of course I was hurt initially, ( I am human)  then I became angry, and now I'm at peace. I had to turn the situation over to God and continue the walk that is intended for my life at this time. As they say, " I'm too blessed to be stressed." I know as the days and months go by I won't have any reflection on this situation because that is how I operate my life. I'm not saying that it's right, but it's what works for me! I have thought about it and came to the conclusion that I disconnect easily because I learned at a young not to get attached. When you live a life of disappointments, and broken trusts you learn survival techniques, and for me when it's over it's over and life goes on! I'm not sure if that's a great thing to do, but it's what allows me peace and comfort. I can't change the thoughts or actions of others so it's senseless for me to spend my waking moments thinking about what I have no control of. I will just continue walking in faith and putting my trust in God who has never failed or disappointed me.

There's people that do want to be a part of my life and are in it because they are connected to me in my current journey. Also, I'm living my purpose - the plan that God has set out for me, so that is where I put my time, energy, and effort.

I don't wish badly of anyone that has gone another direction. We are all on our own journey - at the end of each day, and when the end of our time on earth comes, we have to answer for our own actions. So live life in a way that makes you feel good about yourself at the end of the day, and gives you peace at night. The peace in my heart is the light of my soul!

Peace, Love & Hugs! 

Friday, August 14, 2015

Good For My Soul

There is so much power and inspiration in this song-it make my soul feel good! Woke up thinking about it so thought I'd share.

Have an awesome weekend!

Peace, Love & Hugs!

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Where Are Your Priorties

I had decided it was best not to share the happenings of my life for a bit, but lately I've had some revelations through the storm that I've been traveling so I decided to share what I've learned thus far.

I consider myself to be very intuitive, spiritual, and one that always walks in faith. Lately my faith and intuition has been tested. I was hit with a bomb which I initially reacted from my heart instead of taking a moment to process what had been said and pray for direction.
After a restless night of relentless prayer I received an answer with a different perspective. That perspective led me to make a decision to rely on my heart or trust God - I chose God which wasn't the popular choice. I have now been removed out of the life of a family member and my grandchildren. I'm not going to pretend that it's not hurtful, but I have to trust and have faith in the process. When God chooses us we might not understand His purpose, but I know that His plan for my life is good so I will continue to walk in faith. I had become too comfortable in my walk and wasn't really living an obedient life. The situation that occurred was a reminder for me on where my priorities in life have to be, regardless of how difficult the walk.
"God, the Creator of the universe, chooses us. And when He does, His purpose is not simply to save us from eternity in hell. His love goes beyond that. He wants an intimate relationship with each one of us. Building this intimacy requires ..."  http://www.intouch.org/read/magazine/daily-devotions
As I move forward in faith I hope to share with you in the near future what blessings and lessons came from this journey...until next time!

Peace, Love, & Hugs!



Thursday, July 23, 2015

Broken

When I announced a few month ago that I was back blogging - that really was the plan. I planned on blogging three times a week. (Monday, Wednesday, and Friday) Well, it's Thursday and I'm just sitting down in front of my laptop debating if I want to do this at all.
I have always been able to share pieces of my life without apprehension, but today I feel torn because of recent circumstances in my life.
I decided to go ahead and write because writing makes my soul feel better, and today my soul is hurting. Not sure if there will be more blogs in the future though - I'm taking this one day at a time.

I've lost a lot of things over my life time thus far (key word- things) but today unfortunately what I'm losing is people. People that are a huge part of my life and are suppose to stay in my life until the day that I die. The ones that are your cheerleaders, your go to people, the ones that understand and trust you, aka family. Instead, I've become a punching bag, the one that you can say mean and hurtful words to without apology, and the one that is no longer needed to work on keeping the family together. I can take the punches because that's who I am - a fighter for what I believe in, but I can't pretend that I have no feelings - I'm human so naturally hurt and sadness is part of my emotions. I don't think others are aware of that, which I'll take responsibility for because I don't break often.

Furthermore, I don't pretend to understand all of the bumps in the road that God places in my life or particular family members. I don't understand His timing, and sometimes I never understand the lesson that I'm suppose to walk away with. What I do know is that my faith is strong, and the God that I believe in always heals. Today though I'm not patient with my faith. I want to know why, I want to know if He's hearing my prayers, and I want answers today. I know it's selfish and egotistical of me, but it's how I'm feeling at this moment.

I know that it's unrealistic for me to ask and expect immediate answers. I most likely will wake up without answers to my question, but I'm not going to give up hope on the possibility of a miracle. Praying strong!

Peace, Love, & Hugs!

Friday, July 17, 2015

I Was Wrong

This week has been a little hectic due to some changes in my life schedule. I've missed a week of seeing and spending time with my family which isn't normal for our family.
But on the upside I'm meeting new people which brings me new knowledge, and from that I shall grow, so it's a beautiful thing!

Speaking of meeting people and new knowledge, I made some prejudgments this week that I'm not proud of, but I'm human and I make wrong decisions occasionally.
This week I met several new people which some I immediately clicked with, and others I sat shaking my head in wonderment because of my first impression of them. Not first impression based on appearance, but first impression based on behavior. As the week continued I was drawn to having a real conversation with each of them because I wanted to understand the behavior that I was questioning. I learned some horrible events that had taken place recently in their life - different stories, but equally sad. I felt awful in thinking that I would have no connection with them, and it was horrible of me to question a relationship based on their demeanor without hearing their story. I was wrong, and I know better. So that was my reminder to something that I already knew and typically always practice. We all have a story so be kind, don't judge, embrace differences, have a conversation for a better understanding, and work on lifting each other up.

Have a fabulous weekend!

Peace, Love & Hugs!

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Fried

When you make the decision that your dream is going to become a reality in a specified time, be prepared to be exhausted through the journey.

I can't even think clearly this week because my brain is on overload, and in case you don't know, it's a 56 years old brain! I'm finishing school this week so lots of work there, and now I have school for my new job which involves a lot of memorization. I know there's others doing more, and it's all doable - I'm just tired and fried! My brain is use to me inputting useless information such as, answers to weird stuff that no one really cares about, preschool activities, song lyrics, positive quotes, and anything that you want to know about Bravo TV. Shallow you're probably whispering under your breath about now, but I really do and know more - it was just on my time. I now have to be accountable to someone else. As for Bravo, I unwind to Bravo TV in the evening as I enjoy my wine. It's just ridiculous TV that's laughable. (the shows I watch)Which brings me to another issue - no wine time or Bravo. By the time I get home it's bed time! But as I stated in the beginning I want some different things in my life within the next 5 years so I need to step out of my comfort zone and work my ass off! So tonight while you're sipping your wine, think of me. I'll be learning, studying, and meeting new people for the next chapter of my life. Cheers!

Monday, July 13, 2015

Cheap Mask Because I'm Cheap!

I love the beauty industry, but I'm cheap. Not frugal...cheap! I don't like paying high prices for my skincare so I make my own products such as scrubs and masks for my beauty regimens. I want to pass on a great face mask.

Sunday evening my daughter and I decided our face was in need of some TLC so I made a face mask that consisted of two products that most of us have in our home - Knox Gelatine and milk.
You use 1 tablespoon of the unflavored Gelatine(not jello), and 1 1/2  tablespoons of milk. Mix until it's a chunky consistency and microwave for 10 - 15 seconds depending on your microwave. ( heat until warm not hot) Stir and apply quickly before it hardens. Leave on 10 -15 minutes or until you feel like you've had major Botox and smiling becomes difficult.

Now for a few warnings - 1. If you're sensitive to smells you might not want to do this. It has an odor that I can't describe other than, disgusting! But, once it begins to cool and harden the smell isn't as noticeable.  2. Avoid your eyebrows and hairline. I slapped this mixture over my entire face not thinking about it attaching to hair. Let's just say I felt like I waxed my face and it hurt like hell trying to peel it off my eyebrows. My daughter pretty much started the process of a receding hair line. We found that a warm washed cloth applied to the eyebrows/hairline works wonders on peeling off the mask.

The result was great and our skin feels amazing!

“These days, you’ve gotta milk a
dollar out of every dime.” 
― Gayle Forman



Peace, Love & Hugs!